Monday, March 10, 2008

The End

I've decided that I'm not going to be blogging for awhile. At least not on this blog. I will continue to post on my adoption blog. I'm considering starting a new blog elsewhere for various reasons. If you would be interested in following me to my new blog when I start it please leave me a comment or send me an email and I will make sure to let you know where to find me in the future. Thanks for reading for all this time!


Tuesday, March 04, 2008


It's been a crazy couple of days at work! We have a huge project that we were told about on Monday morning and it is due tomorrow morning. Not much notice and quite a bit of stress. So long hours and a bit of panic in my world. I'll actually be glad to go to class tomorrow to get a break from the craziness. Go figure!

With all the hours at work it has really helped to keep my mind off the other stuff. I figure that is never a bad thing. I did get a nice bouquet of flowers today from the adoption agency and a very thoughtful card. That was a nice surprise. And luckily for me everyone at work is getting used to this whole routine so they don't make a big deal out of it anymore. That helps. I hate talking about it and hate that look people give you when they feel sorry for you. It reminds me of when my mom died. I hate that look!

So off to bed for me so I can get to work early.


Monday, March 03, 2008

Manic Monday

You find that your best friend has stolen money to pay for medical treatment for a seriously ill relative. What would you do?

I would encourage them to return it and apply for grants to help with the cost of the medical treatment. There are lots of hospitals that have funds available to help.

What three things you regret not learning to do?

Learning to make gravy like my mom.
Learning to play the piano.
Learning Spanish

Sunday, March 02, 2008

Menu Plan Monday

This is my first Menu Plan Monday. I usually plan my menu in advance but I've never taken part in this meme. So I thought this would be a good week to start.

Monday- Sloppy Joe Tator Tot Casserole

Tuesday- Soup and Grilled Cheese Sandwiches

Wednesday- Leftovers

Thursday- Chili Mac Casserole

Friday- Turkey Sandwich, Fruit, and a Salad

Saturday- Dinner Out with Family

Sunday- Meat Loaf, Scalloped Potatoes, and Salad

What's on your menu?


Sundays are the best for regrouping. I got a lot accomplished today. I went grocery shopping, did laundry, played with Lena, cleaned my bedroom, paid some bills. Basically I stayed busy and kept my mind off everything else. Nothing like busy work to keep a girl going.

Tomorrow will be a busy day at work. I have a staff meeting in the morning and a meeting with the county attorney in the afternoon. I have a ton of reports to go over and emails to return. So I'll stay preoccupied most of the day there. That's never a bad thing.

I wish I could say I'm bouncing back from this failed one like I have the others. I'm not as sad as the other times but I'm still really angry. I don't really know what I'm going to do. I don't know if this is the end of the road or not. I'm not in a good place and there are no clear answers. Maybe tomorrow when the sun comes up I'll have a clearer picture....


Saturday, March 01, 2008

Not Again

Miss S gave birth to a baby girl on Thursday. After several drama filled days of going back and forth she has decided to parent the baby. So I've now hit failed adoption number 3! I think I may be getting close to a world record in failed adoptions. If anyone is reading this and has had three or more failed adoptions please leave me a comment and let me know how you deal with this.

I'm so pissed off right now. I'm not pissed at Miss S I'm pissed at the universe and God. I don't understand why this keeps happening. And I really don't understand why I'm a person that can't just get pregnant and have her own baby. It's horrible having to ask someone for a baby. And it pisses me off that I have no control or power in this. So now I'm back to waiting. Always waiting.

So that's the scoop of the week.