Broken

I am living in the house of broken things! I'm not sure what in the heck is going on with all my stuff but it's just not right...

My lawn mower is broken. I don't think the thing every worked right anyways. You actually had to push the piece of crap. It should just go and cut on it's own if you ask me... But now it only goes about three steps and then dies. That is if the back wheel hasn't fallen off before it dies. And I won't even tell you about the crappy handle that comes off sometimes. That is the worst.

My DVD player is broken. It does this lovely thing where it skips and bounces and makes everyone sound like they have a speech impediment. That is nice. But then it gets real pretty when it just quits running and says disc error and then spits out the DVD. Crap! I can't even watch a movie after the mower pisses me off.

My dishwasher is broken. It has this part that falls off. It is the spinning part that shoots the water. So the dishwasher will run it just doesn't shoot the water out effectively. This is the part that breaks all the time. It falls off and the only person in the world that knows how to fix it is my dad. It's like a mysterious broken part that calls my dad home. It's time for him to come visit so it will work right again...

So there is only one way to solve all of these problems at one time. I need to marry an incredibly funny actor. He can entertain me so I won't need the DVD player. He would also be so rich that someone else would mow our yard and do our dishes so all my problems would be solved.... I better get to work on that!

Jessie

Ghost Hunt

Well Darby, Leslie, and her friend Jessica and I all went ghost hunting tonight. It wasn't as scary as I thought it would be. We got one picture with an orb in it and we got some strange tape recordings so that was cool. But we didn't get anything real great. But at least we had fun.

My mom comes home tomorrow. I'm looking forward to that. I've missed her this week. But that also means that Heather will be going home so it will be quiet at my house. It's been so nice having her around. She is a good roommate.

Better go to bed. I'm worn out.

Jessie

Snow Cone

97 degrees. That is really freaking HOT! That's how hot it was today. The clock sign said so. That's to hot for a fat kid. That hot makes me cranky, really really cranky. I turn into a mean mean fat kid that has bad hair and no make up because the heat wore it off. Not a happy thing.

So as a reward for the ridiculous heat and the crap going on at work Darby and I went to get a snow cone. A snow cone has super powers! It is cold which is good. It tastes good which is great. And it doesn't have many calories which is super good great. Which means a whole lotta good. The snow cone place should only make you happy...

But something went wrong today. We got there and there were lots of other people. So we had to wait in line. In the sun and the heat and the crankiness set it. So I went and stood in the shade for a little bit. Then another car pulled into the parking lot. So I moved back to the sun so they wouldn't cut. Darby said they wouldn't cut and I told her I just wanted to make sure. So I sacrificed the shady comfort for the sun. Knowing the snow cone was coming soon to make it okay.

It was getting closer... 9 minutes passed, 10 minutes passed, 12 minutes passed. Finally only one guy in front of me. He ordered his cone. Then his phone rang and he talked. She handed him his cone and he ordered another one. He said the person on the phone wanted one. Well I say the phone person goes to the back of the line. That is almost cutting. But I let it slide because I was next and I was trying to be nice even though sweat was running down my boobs and my toes were getting sunburned!

So he is done and it is MY TURN!!! But no! Some freaky little kid, some little ugly girl with the worst hair I've ever seen and bad flip flops cutted. She was in the car that forced me out of the shade in the first place. I was gonna say something, I was gonna knock her down. What a crappy thing to do. Why do parents not teach their kids MANNERS!!! I swear I wanted to take her flip flop off and whip her butt with it. CUTTING IS SOOOOO WRONG!!!!

But Darby gave me the look. The one that said chill out and don't beat up some random child. The one that said she is little and you are big and you should be nice. The one that said when no one is looking we will knock her down and spill her snow cone and that will be better than calling her on the cutting. So I didn't say anything. And after she got her ugly mug outta the way I got my snow cone. And it was delicious and it made things better. So it worked out.

Jessie

P.S. I sure hope that kid has quit crying by now. Darby shoved her real hard and took some of her snow cone. Bad times for her.

Slave Drivers

Long day.....

Work was busy....

Bracelet making was fun...

Lena made the pee pee on my floor after she attacked the neighbors boxer...

My mom is having a good day...

I saw a really fat lady on a scooter today...

Heather is still here...

Her friend Chelsi is staying the night too...

I'm tired...

Goodnight...

Jessie

Sit

Well Lena is about to kill Heather. For some reason she gets all excited when she sees Heather and just attacks her. It's like she turns into a different puppy. I don't get it. She bites and nips at her. Jumps all over her. Eats her hair, bites her ears. It's weird. So that's not so good.

But while Heather has been gone this evening Lena and I have practiced sitting. Well I know how to do it. She has been practicing. Not me. But she is getting the hang of it. We tried about 20 times and now she is taking a nap. That seems to be the routine. Play then sleep.

Have to go to El Dorado tomorrow for a training thing. I'm not looking forward to that. I hate training stuff. They are always so so so boring! YUCK!!! But after work it is another bracelet making night. I'm excited about that. It should be fun.

Jessie

10.5

Heather and I just got done watching that 10.5 movie on NBC. We are such dorks. We are so into that movie! And it's a two part thing. So now we are gonna have to watch it again on Tuesday to find out if the world ends or not! Seriously thought it's some good stuff. It's not every day you see the Hoover Dam get destroyed.

Mom has headed to Chicago. So it's girl's week here at my house. It will be nice to have Heather here. But she eats A LOT!!! I made the mistake of taking her to the grocery store with me! Yikes! But we have a crap load of food now. At least she won't starve. Mom would be glad to know that.

Jessie

Sites

Okay I haven't done a favorite things list in awhile. And I don't really have a lot of favorite things right now. But I do have a couple favorite sites...

www.oneredpaperclip.blogspot.com
This site is pretty awesome. Very creative idea and fun to watch and see how it unfolds...

www.tourettesguy.com
This site is too dang funny! It is so sick and wrong but the videos are hilarious!!!! When I'm upset this can make me laugh every time!

www.backtothebible.org
I like this site because it gives you a guide so you can read the bible in a year. It tells you what versus to read each day so you get through the whole thing. Pretty cool

www.luckyyoupsc.com
My lovely friend Sharon whose husband Jeremy has cancer runs this site. She has created an awesome spa collection of amazing soaps, lotions, bath salts, etc. Please read the About Us section. She shares their story and it's pretty awesome.

That's what I know

Jessie

Pretty Yard

Mowed my yard this morning. It looks much better now. I had to borrow my mom's mower to do it. Mine is broken. Not sure exactly how that is gonna work out. Having someone haul the mower in here for me and then back to mom's is a pain in the butt. But it doesn't matter till next week. The yard is mowed and pretty now and that is the most important thing.

I'm going to Erika's graduation party this afternoon. I think my mom is even gonna go for a little bit. She has been feeling pretty good the past couple days. That would be nice if we could all go together. Heather is for sure going so at least I don't have to show up alone.

Better get cleaned up and get going.

Jessie

My Bad

I screwed up a little bit today. Okay so I screwed up a whole lot today. I've been trying to call my brother Shawn and his wife Amanda for days now. I've left a bunch of messages on their home phone and cell phones and no calls back. I was pretty annoyed about it today.

So when I called today I left Amanda a really funny completely inappropriate voicemail. It was long and funny and so so so inappropriate. Well Amanda called me back. But she called on the home phone. I asked if she got my voicemail. She said no. I thought her phone was jacked up.

Well nope... I go to a visit and come out and I have a voicemail. It says it's from Amanda's cell. Well I play the message and it is this girl that sounds really young saying that I keep calling her phone and she isn't Amanda and no she isn't "humping my brother" so to please not call anymore. She was laughing but damn I wanted to just die!!! I can't believe I left some random girl such an inappropriate message! Very funny but oh so wrong. I'm for sure going to hell now!!!!

Jessie

What a day...

It was so slow at work today. This week is going to be very long... I'm sure next week will be super crazy to make up for it.

Lena got a bath tonight. She doesn't smell like potting soil now. That is a good thing!

I went on a date. That was fun. His name is Nathan and he seems like an alright guy. No serious sparks but nice and polite and that's good with me.

Tired and still have laundry to put away.

Jessie

Flowers

Went out to mom's tonight. I took Lena with me. She does really well staying on the back porch and entertaining herself. I take her toys and things and she plays and we go on walks every once in awhile. So it has been working fine. Well tonigt Mom, Donna and I are working on the never ending puzzle and I hear her barking. She doesn't usually bark unless there is a person or another animal around. So I go to check on her.

I peer out the window and there is little Miss Lena with a petunia on her head rolling around in potting soil. I didn't realize that mom had a bag of flowers on the porch! Lena was having a dang good time tearing the crap out of those suckers! Mom didn't get upset at all which surprised me. I was more upset that she was naughty at someone else's house. But she was so stinking cute I couldn't stay mad for too long. Mom and Donna checked the flowers over and we were able to salvage them. She didn't do much to the root just mainly the flowers and leaves... Crazy puppies!

Mom was having a pretty good night tonight. I was impressed. She has been pretty tired lately. She just seemed to have more energy today than yesterday. That's a good thing.

Jessie

Review

Well it was an interesting weekend. It went by to quickly. Mother's Day was wonderful! It was so nice to be with my mom. Granted I see her about every day but it's still cool to celebrate Mother's Day. I cooked lunch for the mom's and Heather and her friends. So we all just ate and hung out. Nothing extravagant. Just good old fun. It was nice!

There was too much drama when I got home last night. Sometimes things are just all crazy. I'm not even getting into that but it was just plain DRAMA!!! YUCK!

Work was long today. Felt like the day just drug on forever. I did get a lot of things done though so that is good.

Lena is doing great. She is just such a good little buddy. How I ever lived without her I don't know! She just makes my heart happy. She is a little bed hog. How something as tiny as her can steal the blankets and hog the bed I will never understand. But she does. She pulls the sheets with her teeth and takes them from me. She is something else.

Jessie

Goddess

You Are Psyche!

Eternally in search of purpose and insight. You're curious and creative with a total sense of wonder. Totally empathetic, you pick up on other's moods easily. Just be sure to pamper yourself as well!

What Goddess Are You?

Ice Cream

You Are Chocolate Ice Cream

Dramatic. Powerful. Flirty.

What Flavor Ice Cream Are You?

Saturday

Well I totally slept in this morning. I actually slept till 9:30! I'm so psyched about that. I was exhausted. I really needed the sleep. I got up and let Lena out at 7:00 and then I just let her play while I went back to bed. She did just fine playing on her own. She didn't get into anything that she shouldn't have.

Last night while I mowed the yard I let her free in the house unsupervised for the first time. I was a little worried but she did great. She just played with her toys and ate and was sleeping when I came in. She really is a pretty well behaved puppy. Today I had to get on her once because she was chewing on my cell phone but after I gave her a toy of her own she was fine.

I just got done cleaning the house so I'm gonna shower and head out to mom's for the rest of the day. I'm gonna leave Lena here today. I have been taking her but she has been out all day today and playing so it won't hurt her to be in her crate for awhile. I may even put the baby gate up and just leave her in the kitchen. She would probably be fine. I'll have to try it eventually so I might as well get to it...

Jessie

Puppy Power

Miss Lena is so wonderful. She just cracks me up. She is quite the little attack dog. She goes after feet like a cop on a crack head. She also can pull my kitchen rugs into the living room and pile them up for me. While I don't need that done at least she has skills. She hasn't had any accidents on the floor yet but she won't eat out of her food bowl. She takes the food out and then eats it. I don't know what that is about. But she is funny and cuddly and I like her. I will keep her.

Work sucks but that is typical. I'm really done with my job. I did get word that I got my 3% raise so I should be happy. But I hate it. I hate going there. And it used to be that if I got there I was okay but now I'm not. The whole day I look at the clock and wonder how I can go home early. Something is gonna have to give. Maybe God will answer my prayer and I'll win the lottery... :-)

Jessie

Lena

Miss Lena has arrived! This is my new puppy! Isn't she beautiful!!! I just love her to pieces!!! She is a miniature schnauzer and I just think she is a wonderful addition to my life. I'm so grateful to have her here!

Jessie

Overwhelmed

I haven't posted in awhile... Sorry about that. I just don't have much time or energy lately. I'm busy but I don't feel like I really get anything done. I feel more like a zombie. I just move through the motions of the day. Go to work, do the laundry, visit mom, workout but don't remember much or focus on much. I think my mind is overloaded.

I would think I was depressed but I have my happy pills to help with that. I think I'm just going through this all and feeling a bit sorry for myself. It will get better though. It always does. I do pretty well for a couple weeks then have a bit of a breakdown. I really think it is probably normal.

I'm thinking about getting a dog. Like I need one more thing to take care of I know! But I think I need something alive that forces me to function even when I don't want to. Something that makes me get off the couch instead of laying there watching movies for 4 hours like I did today. I had a million things to do around my house and I laid on my couch like an idiot. Now it's just more to do tomorrow.

Jessie

Thursday

Well it's almost Friday! Thank God!!! This has been such a very long slow week. Work is just dragging. I'm having a bunch of files audited so all I've done this week is basically go through and check and recheck my files. If I get a perfect audit I get a paid day off work. So I'm working on it really hard. I don't have any vacation days left so I could use some free days!

Mom was doing better tonight. She was cracking me up actually. She can be so funny. Aunt Shirley was being way funny too. If you knew Aunt Shirley you would understand why that is a bit shocking. She has really changed through this whole thing. I think being around us is rubbing off on her. She is calmer and funnier and she is a much better hugger! I'm so pleased with that. I also think that the Reliv shakes are helping her feel better too. She has some health problems and I think it's helping her with that as well as her mood. It's amazing really! I told her tonight I'm not sure if it's the cancer or the shakes that's changing her but that I really think she is pretty damn fun to be around.

tomorrow I'm not going out to mom's. We are having a making bracelets at my house. The healing bracelets in mom's honor are selling like crazy. Darby pushes those better than a drug dealer pushes crack. It's amazing! So because Darby is such a bracelet sales lady we have to make a ton more. Which is good. They are fun to make and the money really helps mom. I'd make a thousand of them if it would help her!

Better jet

Jessie

Good Times

Today was pretty busy at work. Very odd day really. Court was strange today and things really shocked me! You just never know what will happen depending on how the judge feels. Sometimes I walk out of the court room baffled. Today was one of those days!!!

Went to a Reliv meeting in Topeka tonight. It was good. I really feel like I made the right decision signing on with Reliv. Hopefully I can make some good things happen soon....

Still haven't ate dinner so I need to do that and get to bed. More tomorrow.

Jessie

Big Post

Okay once again I waited to long to post and now I have a lot to put in one really long post... YUCK!!!!

Friday was a weird day. Leslie and I had court in Chase County so we went early to eat at Grand Central. The service sucked so I went to get our drinks myself and this very handsome cowboy stopped me and said he would get them. So he went in back and got our drinks and brought them to us. Then he stood around and chatted with us. We found out he owns a bar there and he asked us to come to the male strippers show they were having that night. We kindly declined since we had to work the benefit thing for my mom. So he went back to his seat with his friends.

Then their food came and we started chatting with them again. He ended up giving us an onion ring as an appetizer and he flirted with me and his buddy flirted with Leslie and it was fun. Then when they were leaving we gave them our numbers. Just cute harmless flirting. Something fun to do....

My dad came to town Friday evening. It was awesome to see him. He helped Heather and I and a bunch of other people set up for the garage sale. My mom also got home on Friday. Very good to see her too. She looked pretty good, just very tired!

Saturday we had the sale and it was HUGE! It was a very long day but a whole lot of fun. So many people came to help and shop and hang out. It was just really neat. We ended up making 5650.07 which is just amazing to me!!! I never thought we would make anywhere close to that amount. Unbelievable.

Saturday night Dad and Heather and I went out to eat and then we hung out at my place in the evening. We were all worn out but it was nice to have some time with dad. Sunday we cleaned out my gutters which was so gross then went to see my mom for a bit. She was doing a little better but still really tired and not able to eat due to the chemo.

Sunday night Dad and I barbecued with my nice new neighbors next door, Nathan and Pam. They are super nice and it was fun! I really like them. Then we watched some cheesy movie with Tom Selleck in it Sunday night. We are hard up for entertainment I guess.

Today I worked and it sucked. I didn't want to go! Dad headed back to New Orleans which also sucked. I didn't want him to go. But he is safe and sound. Went and saw mom tonight and she was doing better. She was able to eat and take her shakes today which is very good. She needs that!

However, I also found out today that the nice guys that were hitting on Leslie and I on Friday are actually gay! I was so disappointed!!! I was really digging the one that gave us our drinks. And Leslie really liked the other one. Usually I can pick up on that but they totally had us sold that they thought we were cute.... They are like their own brokeback mountain... To bad so sad!

Now I'm worn out. I just hate Mondays! I never feel like I get a weekend and then going back to work sucks. Someday I'm gonna win the big bucks and quit this whole working thing....

Jessie