Weird

Things are so weird lately. I just struggle to find something normal in each day. I hate cancer. I hate chemo. I hate the powerlessness. I hate that this is our life. I broke down and cried today to my mom and well everyone at the breakfast table. I just want our life back. I want one single day of normal. Nothing fancy. I want to go to my mom's and eat a meal that we made and sit at her table and joke around. And then I wanna play Mexican Train Dominos and laugh and just be us. And I want to not think about time and blood counts and life. I just want an ordinary day. One ordinary day!!!!

That's not gonna happen again probably. And I hate that too!!!

Jessie